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Hands down the hardest thing I´ve ever done. Had a strategy of going with the flow for the first 10k seeing how I felt and then going from there. Was marginally off goal pace through 10k but pulled it back a bit by 15k. Felt good during next 5k block but when I checked my time, fell further off the pace. Fell further back at 25k and my head and my heart just sank. Felt like I had no energy and just found the going exceptionally difficult. Soldiered on for as long a I could but at around 28k slowed to a walk. Knew once that happened I was on a slippery slope which turned out to be the case. Found the next 10k a real struggle, going for a run for a bit - walk for a bit strategy which sort of helped. Ran the last 5k but was a real struggle. Didn´t feel elated once I was done, just glad it was over. Have been in a massive funk about it since finishing. Had a goal of around 4hrs but that ship sailed early. There are reasons behind it but also things to learn from it. I know I´m better than what I showed and am determined to turn it around (my training times would put me comfortably sub-4). Want to do another to prove to myself I can do it. But must learn lessons and act on them.

PLAYLIST

Sea Within A Sea -- The Horrors
Let It Rock -- Kevin Rudolp
Re-education (Through Labour) -- Rise Against
Runier -- Nine Inch Nails
Bloodbuzz Ohio -- The National
Stargasm -- Mastodon
Face in the Crowd -- Cat's Eyes
Drones -- Rise Against
Gouge Away -- Pixies
Little Secrets -- Passion Pit
Intergalactic -- Beastie Boys
Rock n Roll All Nite -- KISS
Baptism -- Crystal Castles
I Wish I Was Someone Better (Metal on Metal Remix) -- Blood Red Shoes
Ready for the Fight -- The Young Punx
Blue Blood -- Foals
Duality -- Slipknot
Colours Fade -- Blood Red Shoes
Oblivion -- Mastodon
Incorporate Use of Cloak and Dagger -- Blood Command
Crimewave -- Crystal Castles
Any Way You Want It -- Journey
One of Two -- Sky Larkin
Krimson -- Warpaint
Machine Gun -- Portishead
BOB -- Outkast
Photoshop Handsome -- Everything Everything
In Media Res -- Los Campisinos!
Heads Will Roll - Yeah Yeah Yeahs
As It Is Above -- Circles
I Can Change -- LCD Soundsystem
Put Me To Work -- PAPA
Feel It All Around -- Washed Out
Rocket Man (I Think It's Going to be a Long, Long Time) -- Elton John
Over You -- Cat's Eyes
Tonight Tonight -- Smashing Pumpkins
Everyone is a VIP to Someone -- The Go! Team
Jesus Walks -- Kanye West
Reagan's Skeleton -- Yeasayer
River Deep Mountain High -- The Four Tops and the Supremes
We Want War -- These New Puritans
Swim -- Surfer Blood
The Hand That Feeds -- Nine Inch Nails
Testify -- Rage Against the Machine
Discipline -- Nine Inch Nails
Map of the Problematique -- Muse
Cult of Personality -- Living Colour
I Was Made for Lovin' You -- KISS
Gold Lion -- Yeah Yeah Yeahs
Sprawl II (Mountains beyond Mountains) -- Arcade Fire
Creepies -- Three Trapped Tigers
Leathers -- Deftones
Give the People What They Want -- The O'Jays
The Black Amnesiacs -- Hope of the States
Gravity's Rainbow -- Klaxons
Contact -- Daft Punk
My Own Summer (Shove It) -- Deftones
In Bloom -- Nirvana
Comeback Kid -- Sleigh Bells
The Perfect Drug -- Nine Inch Nails
Follow Me -- Muse