depression

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Corrah Jan 2019 5:08pm, 16 Jan 2019 4,356 posts	0 Corrah Thinking of all you folks. Hang in there xx
NRGEE Jan 2019 7:39pm, 16 Jan 2019 548 posts	0 NRGEE For those that don't know- the free 24 hour samaritans tel number is 116 123. I have used this number. They were there to listen and non judgemental. I was on the phone 40mins. I felt more able to cope after it.
early bird Jan 2019 8:55pm, 16 Jan 2019 12,410 posts	0 early bird Can I pop in with a bit of positivity? My aim was to walk the dog today. Not a good start when it was nearly lunchtime before I managed to get out of bed. I did walk him though and for a bit longer than I usually would 20 mins instead of 10-15 (I know it's still not enough really but OH does walk him too) Last night I listened to my new slimpod. It's a re train your brain weightloss thing. I was skeptical so Ive just paid £1 for a week trial. In the pods list there is slimpod, fitpod, stresspod and sugarpod. I didn't know if it was that helped me get out with the dog or not but I listened again this afternoon and dosed off while it was on. When OH came home the plan was to go to the gym. I asked him what we were doing and he said it was up to me. My response is usually well go tomorrow/another day. Tonight I said we'll go. I did actually go and quite enjoyed it, I'm not sure I will be able to walk very well tomorrow though. I'm hoping the stresspod will help me feel less anxious over uni and hopefully have a knock on effect elsewhere in my life. It maybe a fluke I may well have been going to pull myself around today I don't know. Although OH did say I didn't expect to find me looking as good as I did when he got home due to several messages we had exchanged. Anyway I'm going to celebrate the fact that I got out today and exercised for the second time this year
Corrah Jan 2019 9:34pm, 16 Jan 2019 4,357 posts	0 Corrah That's great EB. Definitely a positive and a win. xx
HappyG(rrr) Jan 2019 8:31am, 17 Jan 2019 30,113 posts	0 HappyG(rrr) Well done EB. Celebrate the wins! Could thread admin pop the Samaritans number in the sidebar - and any other useful links - please? G
idle_wilder Jan 2019 8:27pm, 19 Jan 2019 1,529 posts	0 idle_wilder So nice to read EB HR lady had emailed following my occupational health appointment, and it turned into a bit of a novel of a reply - nothing I wouldn't say to my manager, but just think it probably needs HR's push to do an actual official meeting, rather than the usual 'let me know what we can do'. I've been thinking more and more this week that one of the major issues of anxiety at work for me is the constant expectation that pretty much all the phone calls at work are answered by me (and I've been struggling more and more this past week to keep my patience with some of the callers!) . We'll see what happens next week, but I have the doctor on Wednesday, and I'm at the point that if she suggests signing me off, I'll be agreeing (it's been suggested a few times over the past year, but I've never taken her up on it).
idle_wilder Jan 2019 3:43pm, 23 Jan 2019 1,531 posts	0 idle_wilder Well, my appointment this morning ended with me getting a sick note for 2 weeks off work. I was off a day last week with a gammy eye (I get dry eyes and normally the eye drops I use before bed are enough, but I woke up in early hours and eyelid was stuck to eyeball, and so painful and blurry I was not even trying to go in to work). Line manager did the 'back to work' thing for HR on Monday and asked if we could discuss the report from HR/occ health. I wasn't particularly prepared, other than telling her I was sick of being expected to answer all the phone calls as well as everything else, and that I was grateful that everyone was willing to listen if I wanted to talk, but I just really couldnt be arsed. She said she would deal with calls in that case (which wasn't very often on Monday, and she's hit or miss at actually passing on the information to the relevant people any time soon after she has it). Office/sample reception also moved yesterday, so I'm now in same room with her and my other admin colleague, but I'm still at 'the hatch' for dealing with the door, and the workstation just wasn't working for me yesterday, and couldn't get comfy. Also fed up of struggling to get any work/life balance, and having so many things to look into/read/find out about that might help me, but never having the time or energy to do anything about it. So it's a bit of a relief to have a couple of weeks away from work to focus on what might help - the issues won't have changed when I go back, but hopefully I'll be a bit better able to deal with them. I called the EAP helpline work has in place at the recommendation of occ health, but it turns out work only have the telephone entitlement (no actual counselling or CBT access), but they said to contact our HR and they might be able to do an adhoc referral. I'm lucky to be in the position to be able to try a couple of private counselling sessions - emailed her back today and just waiting for available appointments. I'm also going to try to write down the positives/things I've managed to do each day, so I can see I'm not 'wasting' time.
Serendippily Jan 2019 7:24pm, 23 Jan 2019 11,175 posts	0 Serendippily Presentyou is unlikely to see any hope i_w but you’ve put things in motion which may actually make a difference. Darkest hour is just before dawn and all that. When I am really frazzled it is difficult to stop thinking in circles - writing it out, talking it out, chopping a pepper slowly all help as does a blast of sea air / hilltop sending you my best ()
panad Jan 2019 8:54pm, 30 Jan 2019 1,267 posts	0 panad How is everyone? Been struggling here the last couple of weeks, but HAVE been talking to manager at work/sister and GP. GP has sent off referral to CMHT, not heard back yet though... Add o this i’ve pulled something in my leg so can’t get out - even walking awkward Keep strong all xx
Rrunner Jan 2019 7:32pm, 31 Jan 2019 187 posts	0 Rrunner Up and down here. Down more than up the past few days if I'm honest. Got a race on Sunday but really don't want to do it. Involves a weekend away and seems silly to go and not do it. But I've not ran since boxing day and hardly before then either. Bottom line is I can't work up the motivation to train and I can't face all the people at the race. Hope everyone else is doing okay.