depression

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Jun 2017
8:52am, 22 Jun 2017
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Nellers
One step at a time, EB. I feel like it's full circle today. 18 months or so ago I was sitting in this same seat in the GP waiting room about to talk to the doc about how the weight of the world was too much to bear. Back here today to discuss whether I still need the ADs.

Whatever his expert opinion is is fine with me.

I just want to thank each and every one of you for your support on this journey. I don't think I would have gone through with the appointment that day if it hadn't been for the encouragement of this thread and that day was such a turning point for me.
Jun 2017
9:24am, 22 Jun 2017
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HappyG(rrr)
That's great to hear Nellers.

EB, can't offer anything except sympathies. And admiration for your battling on. Take care of you. G
Jun 2017
9:35am, 22 Jun 2017
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Hills of Death (HOD)
Great stuff mate

Even me 😉
Jun 2017
10:27am, 22 Jun 2017
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Nellers
So I'm scaling down the drugs over the next month or 2 unless I start having wobbles. Hopefully I'll be off them by October.
Jun 2017
1:30pm, 22 Jun 2017
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Hills of Death (HOD)
I've just been upped !!!

Been off 3 weeks now anyone else off for a while ?
Jun 2017
6:44pm, 22 Jun 2017
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early bird
Found work very stressful today, tight feeling in upper chest hard to catch my breath most of the day. Got some support from colleagues re yesterday which was nice.

Got home to a copy of my gp letter from my epilepsy nurse. There's something about seeing what you've said in black and white that just makes things feel more 'real', as in its now out there and other people know.

I feel exhausted and just want to sleep.

HOD I'm not off at all struggling on as I can't afford financially to not work (need money from extra shifts to survive) what have you been upped to? I see the nurse specialist on Monday not really sure what to expect when I do see her tbh.

Nellie's that's great news and gives us all hope there's light at the end of the tunnel
Jun 2017
10:44pm, 22 Jun 2017
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Hills of Death (HOD)
30 from 20.

I get full pay off sick so it's not worth struggling to go,in especially when I discovered yesterday I trained a terrorist (unknowingly) . Just have this fear of going into London and dread
Jun 2017
9:58am, 24 Jun 2017
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jangles
Overtaking a truck in the right lane at 80+mph and my mind says 'turn the wheel, hit the barrier and it'll all be over in a matter of seconds'. Then I spend the next few minutes contemplating the after effects. Would the airbags have saved me? Would I have killed anyone else in the process?

It doesn't take much to send me back to the depression pit but I'm right in it at the moment. The daily anxiety I lie with is bad enough in itself but at the moment being dead feels like my only way forward. I won't do it because there is a rational part of my brain that tells me I'd be causing too much pain to so many other people.. but I can't help the way I feel.
Jun 2017
11:10am, 24 Jun 2017
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1step2far
Ohhh Jangles. (((()))) it's awful when those thoughts come... and often from nowhere. I'm glad you didn't. Have you got anyone to chat to?
Jun 2017
12:19pm, 24 Jun 2017
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jangles
I'm finding people's patience is running thin and nobody wants to listen anymore. I get the usual 'get over it' 'just smile and try to be happy' etc.

I must be boring people to death. I'm sick of being like this but being like it is stopping me from making positive change.

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