depression

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Derby Tup
Derby Tup
Nov 2016
5:37pm, 21 Nov 2016
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Derby Tup
The fear of return is a big part of the "problem"
Tinseltubs
Tinseltubs
Dec 2016
6:18pm, 11 Dec 2016
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Tinseltubs
Evening- how are we all doing

I feel from memory that I am at my lowest ever. Going through the motions trying to maintain a public face of normal, not sure how much longer I can succeed. Cancelled on two Chrimbo nights out so far, not go the energy for a 'fun' face.
The tree is up but have no interest in Christmas at all. If it wasn't for trying not to worry the Mr or thinking of an excuse for work absence I don't think I would bother getting out from under the duvet even if I'm not sleeping
Serenmerrily
Serenmerrily
Dec 2016
6:30pm, 11 Dec 2016
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Serenmerrily
Is this a hard time of year for you Tubs? It is for many people, the requirement to look jolly is an added pressure, try and be easy on yourself, plenty of () here x
Derby Tup
Derby Tup
Dec 2016
7:43pm, 11 Dec 2016
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Derby Tup
Arguably the toughest time for anyone who is suffering with depression. I hate this part of the year. A load of hassle for a more or less guaranteed anti-climax (at best). Mind, New Year is worse still. Thoughts with all
Steady Edina
Steady Edina
Dec 2016
8:40pm, 11 Dec 2016
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Steady Edina
I find myself feeling a bit down this evening
Hills of Death (HOD)
Hills of Death (HOD)
Dec 2016
8:51pm, 11 Dec 2016
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Hills of Death (HOD)
I think it's the X Factor final cause it's make me feel that way !!
Liliaicha
Liliaicha
Dec 2016
9:25pm, 11 Dec 2016
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Liliaicha
This year I have decided not to hate Christmas, but I am utterly indifferent to it. I am lucky that I can at least choose what I want to do, but it's has been a long slow struggle, because I often think of the 'what might have been's', and about what I'll never have :(

I always used to have to increase my medication around this time of year, but an isolated cottage, a sea view and running for miles on the SWCP get me through now :)

Hugs to all.
early bird
early bird
Dec 2016
12:01pm, 26 Dec 2016
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early bird
Hi peeps. Not been here for quite a while. I have always tried to cope myself and I think I still am. However I seem to feel nothing. Best I can describe it is 'numb' It's like nothing really touches me anymore. My eldest daughter has had two miscarriages recently which have caused her a lot of distress and although I feel for her I really do it's almost like I have my work head on. I no longer seem to have the ability to connect with people anymore. I have closed myself down a lot in the past but I now seem to be unable to reopen myself. I have a persona I can flip into to keep up appearances but it leaves me exhausted by time I get home. Even running which I used to be able to use to help lift me doesn't seem to help. I do the social 'yes that was great' but as soon as I'm back alone my numbness returns. Not sure what I can do or if I even want to tbh. If I reopen myself and let feelings back in I don't know if I could cope with them. Not even sure why I'm posting I guess it's to find out if anyone else has experienced this....
Liliaicha
Liliaicha
Dec 2016
2:48pm, 26 Dec 2016
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Liliaicha
EB - I feel 'numb' a lot of the time. I have no connection to anyone so what happens never instills any feeling in me. I don't miss anyone, l don't feel the need to see anyone or talk to anyone.

I've shut myself down over the years and have no desire to re-open. It's my way of coping.

The death of my beloved cat this year devastated me, and evoked a lot of emotion that I found incredibly difficult to deal with.

I can't help or advise, but I just wanted you to know that you are not the only one.
Serenmerrily
Serenmerrily
Dec 2016
4:15pm, 26 Dec 2016
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Serenmerrily
What you describe is what I felt too early bird. Hugs to you both xx

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